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Name: lyz
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Birthday: 6/21/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: i have a lot...um hanging with nikkie and dani, harry potter, shinedown, the faint, all american rejects, sugarcult, my chucks, my dickies purse, band, fall out boy, guys, staind, godsmack, sublime, WOLF IT, GET ER DONE!
Expertise: wouldnt you like to know...;)
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  heyimlyz
Member Since:
4/7/2004
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| do you ever have the feeling that you are high?
even when your not? | | |
| okay all this is how life is going...
done w/ skool besides my math class
will hopefully start at the community college in jan
i work almost everyday
i had an emotional breakdown the other day
some lady called and yelled at me and called me names
then boss called and yelled at me some more
apparently i wasnt supposed to give the lady her number
oh well
will be going to NE for christmas break
grand untis decided this would be a grad./christmas gift
have to find a ride to tucson at like 5 in the morning
i will be there on the 23 and then leave on the following fri.
i will be renting a room from a foster parent
kinda stupid in my opinion though
then will still work on getting my own apartment
*JENNY-you should go down to tucson...so we can hang out! give me a call 520-456-1000 or work cuz i practically live there 520-459-4379 just ask 4 me
other than that life is going the same and it never changes
it seems so boring i do the same thing everyday...
oh well | | |
| As time goes by she becomes someone else. She does the same thing everyday: school, work, then back to the center. She needs to find a place of her own and quick. but she cant find anyone who is 18 and looking for a roommate. If she was back home it wouldnt have been a problem. she had enough friends that cared for her that they would let her have a room then and there, the moment that she asked. The urge is getting harder for her to control but she still has it in check. She has started to have dreams about it. She has never dreamed about it, ever, and it scares her. All she wants to do is have life go back to normal. But she doesnt know what normal is, her life has never been normal. she has become lifeless she no longer has any emotion. No she is not emotionless she just doesnt seem to care any more. She tries her best, she does what it is she is supposed to do. If only they would do their part would things be okay. They tell her if she finds an apartment then shes got it. But she has found one, they didnt do their part and send in the paperwork. Therefore, she will most likely lose the house. She feels that they dont even want to help her that all they do is lie. | | |
| not much to say
things are going better
still have cravings
might get my own place
depends on the "case-worker"
and if she will call me back
i work to much
i have decided to stop thinking
b/c when you think you dont live
you dont feel and you dont do what
it is you really want to do
so from now on i am going to feel
not think, i will not hesitate anymore
i will do it
despite what everyone thinks
except for that one thing
that i will alway hesitate
and then say no when what
i really want to do is say
yes | | |
| She is so confused and she doesnt know what to do. She is still homesick and is thinking of moving back to nebraska in december4. The problem is that she doesnt know if its suck a good idea due to the fact that Arizona will only pay for her schooling if hse stays in state. She wants to call and ask het aunt what hse thinks on the whole ordeal. She has even thought about moving to texas to be near her brother. She is hesititant on the thought because she know what a flake her brother can be and is beginning to think he is a lost cause. She begins to wonder if she will have to go through life with all these decisions. She know that life is hard and found out that someone she knew had cancer in the past. The women had the cancer removed and ended up flat lining it due to eternal bleeding. The lady lived through it after a certain amount of blood was pumped back into her frail body. This story the lady has told her makes her think about how short life really is. Will she live a short life and all that people will remember is how big of a fuck up she was? | | |
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